Its taken me a while to get this post together, If`in and ar`in, should i or should`t I
anyway its basicaly a thank you to all the people from amibay, but more so for the people that I met at blackpool last november (2010). So Thank you for helping me get my life a little bit more on track.
Some of you may or may not know that I have been a drug addict on and off for at least the last 20 years but last october was the last time I had anything. That was about 3 weeks before retroplay and I have not had anything like that since. Now I`ve been in this position 4 times before and always lapsed back into useing but touch wood and ribbiting a lot I wont lapse again.
Now I hope most of the members of amibay are grown up enough to judge me on my actions and statements and not jump to the old sterotype of theiveing scum bag drug addict. Now I know people like that do exist as I have met a fair few as that is the kind of person you generaly have to deal with to get your fix, not good, so part of my reablitation is changing the circle of people I know and meet, thats the hard bit, The easy bit is finding something else to do with my time and thats my computers especialy my Amigas which is great but can be expensive.
The thing I hate now is the depression the ups are quite good though as I get lots done and come up with ideas and stuff but the lows are absaloutly crap, I have spent days in bed feeling sorry for myself which really messes with the rational part of my brain.
Well thats my story, Its not a cry for help its just me trying to help myself by being honest with the fine people that make up this community.
thanks & ribbits
cosmic
anyway its basicaly a thank you to all the people from amibay, but more so for the people that I met at blackpool last november (2010). So Thank you for helping me get my life a little bit more on track.
Some of you may or may not know that I have been a drug addict on and off for at least the last 20 years but last october was the last time I had anything. That was about 3 weeks before retroplay and I have not had anything like that since. Now I`ve been in this position 4 times before and always lapsed back into useing but touch wood and ribbiting a lot I wont lapse again.
Now I hope most of the members of amibay are grown up enough to judge me on my actions and statements and not jump to the old sterotype of theiveing scum bag drug addict. Now I know people like that do exist as I have met a fair few as that is the kind of person you generaly have to deal with to get your fix, not good, so part of my reablitation is changing the circle of people I know and meet, thats the hard bit, The easy bit is finding something else to do with my time and thats my computers especialy my Amigas which is great but can be expensive.
The thing I hate now is the depression the ups are quite good though as I get lots done and come up with ideas and stuff but the lows are absaloutly crap, I have spent days in bed feeling sorry for myself which really messes with the rational part of my brain.
Well thats my story, Its not a cry for help its just me trying to help myself by being honest with the fine people that make up this community.
thanks & ribbits
cosmic
We are all only human and naturally we all make mistakes in life but it's the real men (or women) that realise what's happened and sort themselves out. You should give yourself a good pat on the back my friend. 
) But i am hoping to re-dress that balance next time.
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